I know I have been inactive for the past few months. Again. I’m sorry for that, but you don’t really want to know what I have not been doing for the past few months, right? I mean, I have done nothing but eat and sleep for the entire summer break. Haha.
While I was in our parents’ room, she came up to me with that flower crown on her hair and shouted, “WELCOME THE BIRTHDAY GIRL!” Sabi ko, “Ang arte mo, sabunutan kita diyan eh.” If there’s one thing about @leiohlei , she likes Barbie. When she saw my new Barbie cologne sabi niya, “Mama ang daya naman eh! Bakit si ate Barbie yung pabango? Ang daya!” Kaya regaluhan niyo daw siya ng kahit anong Barbie. Halata naman na napag-utusan lang ako diba? Hihi. Love you. Batiin niyo daw siya. #sis #sibs #mylife
shall post about my shits tomorrow hah because i just cannot contain it anymore
This is the best thing i’ve ever heard
My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade - 0:00
Green Day - Good Riddance - 0:12
Panic! at the Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies - 0:24
blink-182 - What’s My Age Again? - 0:34
Jimmy Eat World - The Middle - 0:46
We The Kings - Check Yes Juliet - 0:46
Third Eye Blind - Graduate - 0:56
All Time Low - Weightless - 0:58
All Time Low - Dear Maria Count Me In - 1:07
Switchfoot - Meant to Live - 1:18
Fall Out Boy - Sugar We’re Going Down - 1:07
My Chemical Romance - I’m Not Okay (I Promise) - 1:29
Boys Like Girls - Thunder - 1:40
30 Seconds to Mars - Kings and Queens - 1:50
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue - 1:59
Relient K - Be My Escape - 2:00
Relient K - Sadie Hawkins Dance - 2:03
Simple Plan - I’d Do Anything - 2:14
Paramore - Misery Business - 2:15
Rise Against - Savior - 2:25
Sum 41 - Fat Lip - 2:33
My Chemical Romance - Teenagers - 2:34
Fountains of Wayne - Stacy’s Mom - 2:43
All American Rejects - Gives You Hell - 2:51
blink-182 - Feeling This - 2:53
Lit - My Own Worst Enemy - 3:08
Sum 41 - In Too Deep - 3:09
The Cab - One of THOSE Nights - 3:37
Relient K - High of 75 - 3:37
blink-182 - I Miss You - 3:37
Paramore - That’s What You Get - 3:48
AFI - Miss Murder - 4:03
Good Charlotte - Dance Floor Anthem - 4:04
Cute Is What We Aim For - Curse of Curves - 4:18
30 Seconds to Mars - Closer to the Edge - 4:30
A Day to Remember - All I Want - 4:45
Mayday Parade - Jamie All Over - 4:57
Fall Out Boy - Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - 4:57
Cartel - Say Anything (Else) - 5:22
Taking Back Sunday - MakeDamnSure - 5:37
Rise Against - Audience of One - 5:47
Fall Out Boy - Sugar We’re Going Down - 5:48
*middle school flashbacks*
In my eighteen years of existence, it would be hard to believe that i have so many regrets like things i should have done. I’ve always wanted to do so many things but I just could not bring myself to do it because it’s either I’m too chicken to do it, or I’ve guts to do it but I never had the resources to fulfill it. It’s really hard because it haunts me every single time I see those people who could do it and I just watch them and hear myself say how pathetic I am for not being able to do that. And you know, it feels horrible because it just adds up to my insecurities. I hate feeling this way, but I could not do anything about it. I try to fight how I think about it, but the negativity always wins. It sucks.
throwing up everything i eat sucks big time
Just a little something my classmate and I wrote for our English class. Yep, I did not write this alone. ;) I’m posting this because I saw this in my files. So, yeah.
The question everyone asks;
the question that makes you
just want to sit down and
reflect on your existence.
It changes you, lets you
Look at life
From a different perspective,
lets you see what could’ve been
What should’ve been, and
What would’ve been.
What if, in that moment,
Instead of just standing here,
Staring as she flipped her hair,
I walked over to her
and invited her to dinner?
Would she have smiled at me,
Revealing the adorable dimples
On her cheeks
With her sparkling chocolate brown eyes,
And said yes?
In that moment,
I could feel his lingering stare
While my friends teased me about him,
About the guy standing by the booth,
And how I should go over there
And ask his number.
What if I had?
Or what if I turned around
And smiled at him?
Would he have smiled back or
waved at me?
Or would he have walked over to us?
What if nothing happens?
What if it just wasn’t meant to be?
It’s probably for the best.
What if I was given the chance?
Nothing can be done about it anymore.
What if she was the one?
Ah, what if she wasn’t?
It doesn’t matter anymore.
Just let go.
Life is too short
To keep living in the past.
But still, what if?
What if I made him stay?
What if we were made for each other?
What if I would’ve been happier with him?
What if he was Mr. Right?
Or, what if he wasn’t?
What if there was someone better?
What if I mattered to him?
What if he cared?
I wouldn’t know it anymore.
What if I stayed?
What if I held on?
What if I believed that everything
That was going on
Would not be in vain?
What if I tried harder?
What if I was stronger?
What if I did not give up?
What if I did not close the door?
What if I did not let it go to waste?
Would everything in my life right now be
Too many questions
With uncertain answers,
Too many regrets,
Too many missed chances
Don’t miss your chance,
Seize the opportunity.
Just do it.
So in the future,
You won’t ask yourself,
it’s getting harder to breathe
as i fall faster and faster
into the deep waters
darling, please come
come and save me
from this agony
A story written in Filipino. Yeah. I’m just trying to write in Filipino. Hehe.
I notice everything. And by everything, I literally mean everything. I notice when someone stops hitting me up like they used to. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I notice when things change, and when it’s no longer the same. I notice every single little detail. I just don’t say anything.
I guess we are all searching or waiting for that someone who will show us our worth, who will make us feel very special.