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08272014|Thursday
I had the chance to bond with some of my college friends at YC. Ha ha ha. I enjoyed it because everything was paid for by the birthday celebrant.

I’m sorry for being selfish. Maybe I’m just tired of giving way for horrible people. But I guess, seeing how selfish I am, it makes me a horrible person, too.

The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to feel so relieved. When you get your heart broken for the first time, you can’t imagine loving someone else again or having someone else love you. You worry about your ex finding love before you do, you worry about being damaged goods. And then it happens. Someone else loves you and you can sleep well at night.

The second time you fall in love with someone, it’s going to feel different. The first time felt like a dream almost. You were untouched, untainted by anyone. You accepted love with wide open arms and desperation. “Love me, love me, love me!” So you did. And then it fell apart and left you shocked to the core. You realized that people could be cruel and break your heart. You realized that people could stop meaning the sweet things they said to you just yesterday. So when you go into it again, you’re going to keep in mind everything that you’ve learned. You’re going to say, “Love me, love me, love me…until you don’t. In which case, I would like some advance warning. Thanks!”

The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to compare it to your first love. That’s okay. That’s natural. You’re going to be studying the new love with judgement and wariness. “My ex never liked broccoli. Why the hell does this one eat so much broccoli?!” Discovering that you have the ability to love multiple people who are different and feel different is initially very jarring. Loving an unfamiliar body will leave you disoriented and in dire need of a map. That’s okay too. That’s to be expected. Just ask the new love for directions.

The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to suffer from a bout of amnesia. You’re going to poke and prod at your lover’s body and be like, “Wait, how do I do this again? How do I love you? I think it starts with us having a moment together in some coffee shop, right?” It’s going to feel scary at first. Falling in love is sort of like riding a bike though. You never really forget.

The second time you fall in love with someone, you’ll be a more sane person. Your first love is when you get all of your insanity out. You behave like an insane monster because your mind is freaking out about all these new powerful feelings. By the second time, however, you have an idea of what works and what doesn’t. It’s by no means perfect. The insanity will make a cameo at some point. “Peek a boo. I’m here! Hope you didn’t forget about me!” But you can usually shoo it away after awhile.

The second time you fall in love with someone, you will hopefully have better sex. Do not quote me on this.

The second time you fall in love with someone will still be exciting and you might even talk about moving in together or marriage. It will feel more “adult.” You have no idea what adult love actually is but you think it involves making coffee for each other in the morning and maybe even getting a dog. “This is my dog, Xan. I got him with the second person I fell in love with because that’s what you do! The first person I was in love with would’ve killed a dog.”

The second time will not be the first time. The first time is an insane magical life gift that you can never reclaim. But that’s okay. The second time is more real anyway. The second time can involve some amazing love.

She was beauty,
He was pain.
She was loving,
But it was all in vain.

A Letter To A Friend (OMG this is so ? )

ispeakquotes:

Dear friend,

Remember that time when we first met? I was nothing in your eyes and you were nothing in mine. We were strangers back then; shy to take the first move, yet somehow we managed to break that wall. I started chatting to you, made a joke and you burst out laughing. We became friends.

We…

(Source: motivational-story)

And here I stand and bare my all—
My broken heart and my flawed soul. 
You have seen every angle of me,
From my scars from battle and love
To every demon that my being could have. 
Now, I ask you my sweet darling,
Do you think that you and I could still be?

Disclaimer: The photo used is not mine. Credits to the owner.

And here I stand and bare my all—
My broken heart and my flawed soul.
You have seen every angle of me,
From my scars from battle and love
To every demon that my being could have.
Now, I ask you my sweet darling,
Do you think that you and I could still be?

Disclaimer: The photo used is not mine. Credits to the owner.

When they ask me what I would do after graduating in college, I always tell them that I do not know. I would want to go to med school, but I am not sure if I would actually like it. I would want to work, but again, I am not sure if I would like it. I do not know what I really want to do with my life. It just sucks, you know, not knowing what you really like to do.

Lines and skies #random #daily #skies #shots #photographs #photography

Lines and skies #random #daily #skies #shots #photographs #photography

If something is rare and unique, it will be sold for a very high price. Therefore, people do not just buy it because they cannot afford to have it. Likewise, if men do not court you (kung hindi ka ligawin), do not ever feel down. Maybe, like those expensive items, they just cannot afford to have you because you are so special. You do not have to rush to get off the market, darling. You see, if these guys will get you so easily, they can just throw you away so easily like the earrings you’ve bought at some fair that if you lost it, it will be okay because it was cheap anyway. But, if you are expensive, they will appreciate your worth because they worked too hard just to get you. They will take care of you because you are precious. I am not saying that girls who are easy to get should not be taken care of, because of course they should be, too. What I’m saying is that women should know their worth and raise their standards because if not, people, specifically men, might not take them seriously and just play with their feelings.

Shadows settle on the place, that you left.
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness.
Destroy the middle, it’s a waste of time.
From the perfect start to the finish line.

And if you’re still breathing, you’re the lucky ones.
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs.
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong.

We are the reckless,
We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our futures
One day we’ll reveal the truth
That one will die before he gets there.

And if you’re still bleeding, you’re the lucky ones.
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone.
We’re setting fire to our insides for fun.
Collecting pictures from a flood that wrecked our home,
It was a flood that wrecked this home.

And you caused it,
And you caused it,
And you caused it

Well I’ve lost it all, I’m just a silhouette,
I’m a lifeless face that you’ll soon forget,
And my eyes are damp from the words you left,
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.

And if you’re in love, then you are the lucky one,
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone.
Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I’m forever missing him.

And you caused it,
And you caused it,
And you caused it

I really like this song. And right now, this might be my favourite song among all the songs that I like. It just speaks so much to my heart.

loneshit asked: A and Z

A. WHY MY LAST RELATIONSHIP ENDED.

Haha. Honestly? I do not know either. It just ended so fast. I just woke up one day and he told me that it’s over. He never gave me the real reasons why, which is why up until now I’m still confused why. But it does not matter anymore, does it?

Z. HOW ARE YOU

How am I? I won’t say I’m okay because I’m not 100%. But maybe 50%?

Do you agree or disagree? #thoughts #opinion #opinions #ispeak #life #people

Do you agree or disagree? #thoughts #opinion #opinions #ispeak #life #people